Entitled: Forget
Oh how i wish.
Aflame may my emotions once be.
I saw the chaos creature once more.
Yet the link between me and the creature,
has been broken,
one that adores.
Set free I am,
till i saw it again.
But this time the touch of it,
Brought me no pain.
The tingling of friendship,
seared throughtout the atmosphere.
Almost as if,brought to the
energy,
Destined to be here.
Yet i ran away,
the fear of being bonded once more.
For if goodwill brings us too close,
Scald me not, I implore.
Entitled: The Jester and the Candlelight
The First Dream:
Once there was a jester, fine and proud
Lived a life comfortable, with hardly a frown
Dancing all day, singing like a laddie
Sometimes with flashes of brilliance
which he treasured dearly
Yet although he danced, he could feel little warmth
Flashes of rage too, would disrupt a song
For though he was a jester, blessed lucky and proud
'Cause of the things he lacked, he would often feel down
Why was this so? Ask the Jester!
Wordless he would, point to the candleholder
This poor jester had never felt warmth since birth
For a curse was on him:"By the flame, be never loved"
Now what did that mean?
Let me come clean.
Jester could touch the flame,
and not even feel pain
He could never feel the fire's warmth on his skin,
and during Christmas, he could feel winter's bite from within
Hugging the pole that held the fire,
he would survive on the warmth, conducted from the fire.
The Last Dream:
One day he could stand it no longer
he summonned out some magic, the curse he tried to sunder
He spoke to the spirits of the candle,
"Could i bask in your warmth?"
The spirits said nothing, but lifted the barrier
The closer he got, the higher were his hopes,
but before he even neared it, into pain he soaked
The short burst of pain was followed by silence,
The barrier had closed again, against Jester's cadence
He knew why it closed,
But why?
The Jester seeks again,
letting out a rare sigh
Entitled: A long story to tell
This will be a very long post. Make sure you have the time, or patience, to read this. I am VERY hesitant to post this. Those who really want to know, can ask. But there are some, i cannot give answers to, for different reasons, especially the first gaze.
The First Gaze:
A boy stared at the sun as he grew old. Its warmth, ever so distant, its piercing light, but he could not move his gaze away.
So enticing, yet so torturing. How he yearned for a moon, so that h would never need a sun.
Finally, he catches sight of the moon. Huge, overpowering his senses, it looms bigger, and bigger, and bigger and bigger, and crushes him beneath. Gosh, why did he ever look at the moon. So alluring, so cooling, almost for a want of embrace, yet equally distant.
A boy who wanted to be distracted from the Sun, had found the Moon.
Now the boy hungers so much for either, he just wishes, he could live in darkness once more.
The night wasnt that bad. If not for the demons that lived within, he would have stayed in it forever and ever and ever. Now he wishes he had and cant go back.
At least the boy has begun to lose sight of the sun due to the moon.
The Reminiscence:
(ali and Ryan have seen this. i seem to have unconciously thrown away that paper)
I used to love the common person, but now it seems distant. Locking my self up was a big mistake, living as a child, as my rage grew, my negative emotions grew so strong they began to overpower the child.
All the self-centered feelings i tried to reject...have grown into nothing short of a monster, a Nightmare, that coerces the Child, and woken the Dreamer. The ironic self-proclaimed bringer of happiness to us all.
Is there no place for pure concern or love in this world?
I struggle but cannot fight against my own inclinations, my own human weakness. My emotions wrestle me in an iron clad grip, forcing me into acting like the very model of what i hate deeply.
If i cannot win this struggle, i cannot ever expect others to do so .... anymore.
Drifting thoughts:
Drifting thoughts of my different voices.The lyrics are not exact. The song is as the audience hears it.
I'm sorry i cant pen it anymore. here are all the quotes to what i feel inside....roughly anyway.
"Unbreak my Heart! So i can love again...."
-Unknown
"Oh how i wish, for soothing rain... oh how i wish to dream again.My loving heart, lost in the dark, for hope i'd give my everything"
-Nemo
"For the heart I'll never have
For the child forever gone
The music flows, because it longs
For the heart I once had"
-For the Heart i once Had
"Search for beauty, find your shore
Try to save them all, bleed no more
You have such oceans within
In the end
I will always love you"
-The Poet and the Pendulum
"Bring me home, or leave me be. My love in the dark heart of the night .. "
- G.L.S.
"Take me kill me cure me bring me home, everyway , everyday, just another loop in the hangman's noose ... ... I keep on watching us sleep."
- G.L.S.
"Redeem me, into childhood.
Show me myself without the shell.
Like the advent, of May, I'll be there,
when you say:
Time to never hold our love"
- G.L.S.
"Its not monsters under your bed, its the Man next door... That makes you fear, makes you cry...makes you cry for the Child"
- Dead to the World
"Save yourself a penny for the ferryman! Save yourself and let them suffer. In hope, in love, this world aint ready for the Ark."
- Planet Hell
"What greater gift, could i get to feel alive? Than the power of love in your eyes?"
-The Power of Love
"I wish for this night time to last for a lifetime...the darkness surround me...the shores of a solar sea...Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you"
-Sleeping Sun
"For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my night
The truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime"
-Sleeping Sun
"Ever felt away with me? Just once, thats all i need. Entwined in finding you one day.
Ever felt away with me? My love it felt so deep...
Ever dream of me?"
- Everdream
and last but not least:
for the friend who sent this to me:
"For the Light, for the Love, for the Truth in your eyes. I am grateful to have such a friend by my side. For the tears, for the love, for not asking me why~"
-Song For You
undead withering eternal