ahh, it started after my LegionOfMary session. My mind was in a little mess after the meeting, as i was trying to forcefully get rid of my reckless happiness to absorb what my leader was trying to say. The result??? A giddy mind. Further more, i did not suceed in getting rid of my blurriness. Then, before lunch,my mother called and asked: ' do you wan to go to wild wild wet???' I of course, with my current state said no. All i thought i needed was to eat anice bowl of ban-mian and watch a movie. Then, after that, tried to ask 2 frens out to watch. Called my mom. and she said..................................
" WATCH MOVIE!?! COME BACK AND TALK, WHOLE FAMILY WAIING FOR YOU."
Ok, she shouted for nothing then.
"YOU TELL ME YOU WANT TO GO NOW SAY WANT TO WATCH MOVIE!?"
"But i told you just now...i din want to go....dun belive ask my fren... .... ... "
" COME BACK THEN TALK."
There it was, i din get to say a word in decision-making. Then, no matter how i said at home, i was dragged along to help.
Then there, i silently stood there. It was kinda obvious i din want to go to Wild Wild Wet, as i knew 2 hours ago (when i reached there) that noone wld join be as they had all already went out to have fun. My mom chose to bring us there late. None of the cousins would come willingly, and i dun wanna drag them. So my mother told me to go anywhere i want in a pissed voice, cause she did not want me to be a blacked faced helper, in which the other aunts wld notice. But i still sat at the bbq pits, sulking. I wasnt in a mood to go around. Then, i spent the whole day there with nothing to do. Then finally, during a boring soccer passing game (pass to the 4yr oldbaby, baby pass back), my mother came back, to find room locked.I did not go up cause, (1), i wld be scolded for nothing again and asked to get lost, and hear things like 'dun need yr help'. So i stayed down below, leaving her to glare at me, something that is a common occurence once every 2 days, for which most of my frens agree she has no basis in doing so. Then argh, later she went bitching about how i wasnt responsible, how i din help at all that day.
But, i helped her transport everything here and there today, just for a few swimsuits, fit into a luggage! Then, she just scolded me for nt being fast enough etc. Look, heres the prob. Im infront of her.
Then so, i din care, and at the end of the day, she said i went to the place because i wanted to. But the fact remains that yesterday, i wanted to go there to celebrate my cousin's(benjamin's)birthday but was unable to do so. And she cleverly assumed that i badly wanted to go. More like she was guilty for scolding me the minute she came back to singapore, cause she was stressed. Yea, there was no actual reason for scolding me, thats why she din shout at me at the Chalet, which she normally would.
Maybe one day, i will explain the incident on the day she came back, which aded on to theway i was more pissed with her than ever.
undead withering eternal